Foggy brain
I'm exhausted from a very long and tiring work week. I notice that I am getting tired about 2 hours before I leave. Then things seem difficult, as if I can't see my way. It's like being in a fog. But my brain just won't function. And I get very indecisive. That's going to get me into a lot of trouble. I'm racking up writing hours without doing any writing. They will pay attention to their statistics and notice that I am slow.
When I was on Effexor and the devil drug, Zyprexa, my mind was always in a fog and my memory severely limited. Now that I'm off those and Lexapro, my brain has come back to me. But I'm wondering if the foggy brain that I'm having is meds-related, or just natural.
Does anyone else get so tired during the day that they become non-functional? And is it BPD related? I don't remember being at a full time job and becoming this tired in the late afternoon. I remember being foggy, but for long periods of time, when I was a book editor. Sometimes I used to take a 15 minute nap at work during the middle of the day.
Or is it age? I'm 49 now. I've got to find a remedy for it.
My sleeping is not very good. I ended up taking something to put me to sleep last night--one of the meds that will show up on a drug test weeks later. So the more trouble I have sleeping, probably the longer it will be until I get my FAA physical and drug test. My regular MD has put me on Neurotonin. One of the side effects of it is to make you sleep at night. Also, it supposedly calms anxiety. She's ramping me up quickly on it, which is good. But I don't know if it is going to be effective in putting me to sleep at night or not. Seroquel might do it. But I don't know if it shows up as a flagged drug or not. I know that several of you have used Seroquel. Does it work for putting you to sleep? And do you have a hangover the next morning? Can't have any drugs that last a long time.
I am flying now (will go out again on Sunday with a different flight instructor) and so with that, and with needing to be fully brain functional all day at work, I have to be careful what I take. That's why the med that I take now is so good. It's a benzodiazapam type, but it doesn't seem to have hangover effects. Except, of course, that it stays in the body for weeks afterward.
I don't take my Ritalin very regularly any more. It's possible, I suppose, that ADD is causing me to lose focus. But that doesn't explain the afternoon syndrome.
Tomorrow morning early, I leave for Frank's apartment. It will be the first time I've seen him since I made the decision not to let myself be in love with him. But I wonder what I'll do if I find him attractive and want to go to bed with him? Will it be safe emotionally? I am still hoping that I've come to terms with him not loving me. I suppose it is dangerous to go be with him, but I really want to keep him as a friend at least. Now you know he's got to be something special for me to still allow myself to be around him. Maybe he won't be attracted to me. If that's the case, then it's a pretty safe bet that we can remain friends. If he is attracted to me, that will be a lot more complex. But there is a big part of me that is hoping he still finds me desirable.
I know, I know. I'm playing with fire. But my alternative is to either to not date, or to turn to another dating service. If Frank stays my friend, I may not date. But if we can't be friends, I still want a companion. So it would be very risky emotionally to start dating.
The dating service that I'm looking into only accepts people who are looking for a marriage. That clears out all the Franks in the world. The service video tapes you answering some pre-chosen questions. And from that you are supposed to give people an idea of who you are and what you are like. Then you go through the men's videos and if you find one attractive, you let him know. Maybe he'll be interested, maybe not. But at least you know that he is looking for a permanent love. I don't know if this method of matching people up works very well or not. They say that 1 in 7 of their members gets married because of the service. I have an interview scheduled with them on Monday afternoon. I don't know if I'll keep it or not.
Time to relax. I wish I could go to sleep early. But I doubt that my mind is going to let me do that.
And so the drama continues...
When I was on Effexor and the devil drug, Zyprexa, my mind was always in a fog and my memory severely limited. Now that I'm off those and Lexapro, my brain has come back to me. But I'm wondering if the foggy brain that I'm having is meds-related, or just natural.
Does anyone else get so tired during the day that they become non-functional? And is it BPD related? I don't remember being at a full time job and becoming this tired in the late afternoon. I remember being foggy, but for long periods of time, when I was a book editor. Sometimes I used to take a 15 minute nap at work during the middle of the day.
Or is it age? I'm 49 now. I've got to find a remedy for it.
My sleeping is not very good. I ended up taking something to put me to sleep last night--one of the meds that will show up on a drug test weeks later. So the more trouble I have sleeping, probably the longer it will be until I get my FAA physical and drug test. My regular MD has put me on Neurotonin. One of the side effects of it is to make you sleep at night. Also, it supposedly calms anxiety. She's ramping me up quickly on it, which is good. But I don't know if it is going to be effective in putting me to sleep at night or not. Seroquel might do it. But I don't know if it shows up as a flagged drug or not. I know that several of you have used Seroquel. Does it work for putting you to sleep? And do you have a hangover the next morning? Can't have any drugs that last a long time.
I am flying now (will go out again on Sunday with a different flight instructor) and so with that, and with needing to be fully brain functional all day at work, I have to be careful what I take. That's why the med that I take now is so good. It's a benzodiazapam type, but it doesn't seem to have hangover effects. Except, of course, that it stays in the body for weeks afterward.
I don't take my Ritalin very regularly any more. It's possible, I suppose, that ADD is causing me to lose focus. But that doesn't explain the afternoon syndrome.
Tomorrow morning early, I leave for Frank's apartment. It will be the first time I've seen him since I made the decision not to let myself be in love with him. But I wonder what I'll do if I find him attractive and want to go to bed with him? Will it be safe emotionally? I am still hoping that I've come to terms with him not loving me. I suppose it is dangerous to go be with him, but I really want to keep him as a friend at least. Now you know he's got to be something special for me to still allow myself to be around him. Maybe he won't be attracted to me. If that's the case, then it's a pretty safe bet that we can remain friends. If he is attracted to me, that will be a lot more complex. But there is a big part of me that is hoping he still finds me desirable.
I know, I know. I'm playing with fire. But my alternative is to either to not date, or to turn to another dating service. If Frank stays my friend, I may not date. But if we can't be friends, I still want a companion. So it would be very risky emotionally to start dating.
The dating service that I'm looking into only accepts people who are looking for a marriage. That clears out all the Franks in the world. The service video tapes you answering some pre-chosen questions. And from that you are supposed to give people an idea of who you are and what you are like. Then you go through the men's videos and if you find one attractive, you let him know. Maybe he'll be interested, maybe not. But at least you know that he is looking for a permanent love. I don't know if this method of matching people up works very well or not. They say that 1 in 7 of their members gets married because of the service. I have an interview scheduled with them on Monday afternoon. I don't know if I'll keep it or not.
Time to relax. I wish I could go to sleep early. But I doubt that my mind is going to let me do that.
And so the drama continues...
posted by borderline savvy at 5:26 PM
3 Comments:
seroquel worked to put me to sleep when i took it. i only took 25 mg. the dosage is different for everyone. bipolar patients are usually on higher doses up to 800 mg of seroquel. psych drugs don't usually show up on drug tests. i asked about it when i had to take a drug test for work. i've taken drug tests while i was on antidepressants and an antipsychotic called risperdal. benzos are short-acting drugs so i don't think they stay in your system for very long. isn't neurontin an antipsychotic? i have a friend who also takes it to help him sleep. i was recently on wellbutrin. it's actually a very good and stable drug. i liked it. i'm always tired after work. i think it's normal to be tired. but it also does sound like you're on a lot of medication. so it could be a combination of things that are making you sleepy. guys are drama, so i avoid them. i wish you well!
Seroquel made me sleepy for almost 2 years. Then I guess my body adjusted to it. I'm still taking it, and I find that if I don't take it, I don't sleep well at all - with frequent awakenings.
About your afternoon tiredness, I think it may be age-related. Maybe it's the drugs too. But I find that when I am working on a high stress project, particularly if I have to concentrate, I get foggy by mid afternoon. That's why I start my work day at 7.30am and get out of the office by 4pm. A person can't be expected to fullu concentrate for 8 hours a day straight. That is just not reasonable.
Take care.
Polar B.
Seroquel is the only thing that helps me sleep. I worship it.
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